Of acne, pride and independence

In the office earlier, I willingly opened to my officemates about how I honestly think how my acne started. I told them I wore too much make up in 2014. After I decided to follow Christ Jesus wholly in 2015, I also stopped acting my previous lifestyle and that includes wearing make ups. Then, acne started. However, while I was telling my story, I remembered everything I went through with my faith. It was such an encouragement to see everything in flashback. I was lifted from my recent frustration — thinking I would not be able to change; I was far from achieving it.

The conversation led me to two things Filipinos and active netizens have celebrated — pride and independence.

Over the past weekends, social media platforms joined in celebration of pride via emojis and buttons made specifically rainbows (🌈). 
Pride usually separates us from the loving presence of God. Pride would always mean to me as “I don’t need you, God. I am good without you.” I was full of it when I began acting my gender preference. I lived a promiscuous life. I went to places where I shouldn’t be. I did things which I was not supposed to be doing. The opinions of others wouldn’t matter and affect me at all. Eyes rolled to every opinion I heard about myself.

Started the week as the country celebrated its 119th Independence Day, everyone feels liberated. That was the exact thing I felt when I was wandering far from God. I corrupted the meaning of freedom by giving in to every temptation my flesh dictated. I wondered, “Finally, far from God, I am free to do everything I want.” The more I sought my own independence in this world, the more I became lost without purpose. Rubbish. Trash.

In all these, none satisfied. I tried to find love from men, friends and in this world, but it would’t come close to my soul. All I knew was I would measure up to this world, but my heart longed for something. Something heavenly. Something that’s not of this world. I then realized I am not of this world, which is corrupt and narcissistic just like the flesh I am in, and it came to my senses that there was a void that had to be filled. I was looking for something or someone that could fill it up. To my desperation, nothing and no one did.

I could have given up finding what could suffice here in my life, but one thing I hadn’t done, and that was to seek my Creator sincerely. The One Who crafted, molded and mastered me. The One Who holds my manual for use. The One Who calls the shot in my life. The Only One Who can fill the void; the void He created for which His love can only fit. The Only Word I needed to hear and which will lead me to LIFE.

From #kilaygoals to #faithgoals, in Christ Jesus I put my trust and confidence. Not in my good works. Not in my religion. Not in my wisdom. Only him. Only Jesus.

In Christ,


Photodump (2014&2015):


Who You are

Who You are


I was rebellious

Wanted to take your place

You still loved me

I was lost

Ran far from your touch

You still sought me

I was afraid

Failed to walk on water

You patiently held me

I was sick

Almost bled to death

You healed me

I was blind

Chose not to see your grace

You opened my eyes

I sold you

Got my 30 pieces of silver

With mercy, You saw me

I lied

Denied you many times

With love, You pursued me


Jesus, You are everything

Everything I need

That’s who You are

In Christ,


25 things millennials shouldn’t hate about being 25

We have already counted a month since the year came anew. This year, we all are getting a year older, and hopefully, a year wiser. We owe that (growing wiser) to ourselves, at least. Don’t we?

I wouldn’t mind telling others I just turned a quarter of a century old this 4 days ago. Just like what others say, age is just a number.

We now bid farewells to our awkward days, thoughtless decisions and petty dramas. Gone are the embarrassing days at school, party-till-you-drop moments and luxury sponsored by our dear parents. Adulting has finally hit you!

Here are the 25 things I think we should not hate about being 25 (in random order, choose for yourselves what to prioritize, lol.)

  1. We should not hate the bond we are having with our parents right now. To tell you honestly, our parents are way cooler than they were 5 or 10 years ago. They are more understanding. Also, we are in the right mind to understand where they are coming from. They become more lenient with the decisions you make. From your former frenemies to now BFFs, they are the best midnight chit chatters.


  1. We should not hate that parents are still our number one critics. Despite the fact that they have become more understanding, they have also become more confident to affront us with their concerns or [lack for a better term] insults. Lol.


  1. We should not hate that people entrust us with bigger tasks at work, home and in life. As we get older, people see us as adults that are responsible. Obviously, we keep up with the standards people have placed on us.


  1. We should not hate that we still need help. I guess everyone still does. We have our own limitations. These are not indispensable. It’s a major let down to think otherwise — we all need our own support system, guys.


  1. We should not hate that we need to choose the people we trust. In support of the preceding point, we don’t want to share our problems with just anyone we know, right? Learn the value of choosing the right people.


  1. We should not hate the fact that we are adults. Yes, you! You are an adult, and people expect adult decisions and adult actions from you. It’s a good thing they expect something from us; we are forced to do better in everything.


  1. We should not hate that being a happy-go-lucky at this age wouldn’t be wise. Since we are already responsible adults, making irresponsible decisions may affect our future self; it is not wise and practical. Facing the consequences of our reckless decisions is such a waste of time, and you wouldn’t want the next 3 years of your life be a waste. Right?


  1. We should not hate the moments we feel lonely. We should not only cherish the happy moments, but the sad/lonely moments, too. Take note the word I used. It’s lonely, not alone. There were moments in my life that I felt lonely but I was always comforted by the fact that it won’t last. Such comes and goes. Learn to get used to it.


  1. We should not hate the love we are receiving [from family, friends, and concerned people]. At times, we tend to resist the love others give. We just don’t feel okay with it. But I have learned that the love and care they offer would help us mature in the way we look at the relationships we have with others right now.


  1. We should not hate that we also need corrections. I admit that I was perplexed with the concept of correction. I was so full of myself that I came to a point when no one would dare tell me what’s really right or wrong. Everything I would decide to do was right. Then, I realized that corrections only come from the people who truly love us. Thus, it would help us better ourselves.


  1. We should not hate that we ourselves must learn to correct others, too. Let’s admit there are things we know that others need to know, too. Just like us, they need pieces of advice and corrections as well.


  1. We should not hate the people who made us feel we are not enough. Looking back, we see many people who, intentionally or unintentionally, have made us feel inadequate and unimportant. They have not been able to find the good in us and that’s okay. As we look further, we may harbor hatred and anger; but what I suggest is we use it as a motivation to do and be better in life. Not that we show them they are wrong but to appease ourselves for the past hurts we felt.


  1. We should not hate the fact we are broke. While I was writing it, I can’t help but laugh about this point. It’s right to start saving early, but what do we do if we’re still broke at this age? I assume that you don’t want to stay broke and I am also certain you are looking for ways to earn a living. That’s fine. So, it’s better to start empty-handed than to end empty-handed. Being broke doesn’t necessarily mean you were irresponsible. I don’t know what you went through but keep on striving hard.


  1. We should not hate that everything we want must be worked for. As a kid, we are trained to work hard to get what we want. I think this too still applies even if we age 25 or more this year.


  1. We should not hate that failures are always a part of the process. It is better to fail than to regret not even trying. Isn’t it? Failing is failing on your attempt. Not doing it because you are afraid to fail is something worse than failures itself. Okay? Okay.


  1. We should not hate that we want to be entertained. Feel free to buy the latest gadget in the market [if you have the means, though.] There’s nothing wrong to be entertained every once in a while. Take a break.


  1. We should not hate ourselves for travelling. Go and see the world. You are entitled to it. You are a part of it. Appreciate a new culture. Taste a different cuisine. We have to enjoy every part of this world.


  1. We should not hate that being healthy is a must. In this age, we should be more mindful of how we take care of our body. We should already know what to eat or not to eat. We should have a balanced diet. We should keep a more active lifestyle.


  1. We should not hate the need to look good. Or professional, to say at least. It is not narcissistic to be mindful of how you look. It is good to allot money for clothes. We have to keep in mind that our looks have been always the first glance to our personalities. A dear friend once told me to invest for good clothes. Guess what, I took that piece of advice less serious and now, I regret it.


  1. We should not hate that hygiene is important. At our age, we shouldn’t disregard our bodies. We shouldn’t take this for granted. Personally, I have lost confidence after my pimples broke out. I was hopeless, but I have learned that hygiene, in general, must be considered as well.


  1. We should not hate that having me time is essential. It is not bad to have me time. Growing up, I was scared to be alone. However, I have to do some things alone. I have mastered the art of watching cinemas alone, eating in a restaurant/fast food chains alone, and going to places alone. I have to admit that being alone is the most liberating experience. I get to know myself better. On the contrary, the most dreadful moment to be alone is when you have problems.


  1. We should not hate ourselves for the things we have wrong in the past. Living for the past 24 years of my life, I have learned that forgiveness helps us to move forward. It is the act of knowing you are limited; you are weak and could miss the mark. To forgive yourself for all the wrong things you have done in your life will be of great help for you.


  1. We should not hate to love ourselves. The first person to love you is yourself. It will only happen as you begin to forgive yourself for everything.


  1. We should not hate the person we have become. You are who you are for every experience, failure, frustration, success and victory you went through. You are the best version of all that you were in the past. Look forward to what this life has in store for you.


  1. We should not hate the existence of God for the past 24 years of our lives. With everything I hold dear now, it is God’s gift. I even asked Him for it. I love how God works in me and through me. I couldn’t thank Him enough for all that He’s done. Even this lifetime is not enough to thank Him. I hope you do, too.


These are the things I have learned not to hate as I turned 25 this year. I hope you are inspired and can get something from this.


In Christ,



P.S. Please excuse the brevity of words and explanations. The pseudo-writer lacks vocabulary.

Reasons why I fast

Last week, Prayer and Fasting had begun. For me, fasting is not the most anticipated spiritual discipline. I wouldn’t just skip a meal or two. Such is death.

Every year since 2015, I started to fast with Victory churches. They begin each year with a week of fasting and also initiate a mid-year fasting. For two years now, I did both year starter and mid-year. I purposely joined not to tell myself that I could participate; but, to think that in my hunger, I would want God to work in my life. After all, it is what fasting is all about. It is about God. It is more about knowing Him. 

I want to share the reasons why I fast.

  • When I fast, I get to consecrate myself to God. It is said in the Bible to consecrate yourselves for tomorrow, God will do wonders among you. (Joshua 3:5) To consecrate ourselves means to purify, sanctify ourselves or make ourselves holy to God. Please don’t get me wrong about this. It is not the food, which comes in our mouth that makes us unholy; rather, it is what comes from our hearts and mouths.


  • When I fast, I get to focus on Him (and not on what I have). In fasting, we do it with prayers. The time we should be eating would be the time we should be praying. Every time we pray, whom do we put our focus into? It is God. Isn’t it?


  • When I fast, I get to know Him more. It is the best time to know Him in a deeper way because fasting quiets our spirit and when we pray to God, we easily get what He wants to tell us.


  • When I fast, I get to see beautiful breakthroughs and results. One of the beautiful breakthroughs after I fasted for three days was I stopped smoking cigarettes. It was hard to stop from an addiction and I think that was one of the breakthroughs that I dearly cherish.


  • When I fast, Jesus reveals himself in a more personal way. He offers personal relationships to us, and all we can do is to accept him. It is in our hands, our choice. When we empty ourselves in fast, he shows himself as our strength because he loves us and wants us to enjoy it.


On Saturday morning, I broke the fasting while feasting. Hehe. I kid! These are just few of my experiences every time I fast. I know there are many revelations to every Christian who fasts. I am encouraged to hear answered prayers after they fast. I cannot wait to hear yours.



 In Christ,


Open Minded ka ba? v2

This is the sequel of my blog entry about the conference I attended a week ago. I want to share this experience to stir your hearts and entertain miracle thoughts because it really does happen if you believe.

So, before anything else, I also have to explain why I have resolved not to change the title after remembering what had all happened there. The title is known to be circulating in social platforms by netizens as they use this question an inside joke – and we all know why. Reading this blog post may require open-mindedness.


The conference was set to start by 2pm. The organizers considered the church’s attendance in the morning; hence, setting the conference in later time. It also worked well with the traffic (no congested roads and less commuters, too) because we arrived at the venue earlier. We got to choose the seats that are more comfortable.

At exactly 2pm, praise and worship started. I loved how it led us to the right atmosphere of worship. There was one song that really touched me and made me cry. The title of the song is Take Courage by Lindy Conant and Circuit Riders.

Above is the YouTube link of the song and I really recommend for you to listen to it.

As the worship concluded, Ps. Paul Yadal began to preach about God’s inheritance and mostly about King Uzziah.

At first, he cited one of the famous Bible stories that we know, Jacob’s story, to begin his preaching. Jacob, younger brother to Esau, stole his brother’s birthright by deceiving him with a meal. What a shallow thing to exchange with your birthright. Perhaps.

 After stealing it, things didn’t come easily for Jacob. He would have thought that stealing it would be an easy peasy for him. Yes, he got the blessing from his father Isaac. But do you think God honored the way Jacob did to get it? There were trials. There were sufferings. Jacob realized he did a terrible. He repented. He got disciplined just as every child should be.

Later on, Ps. Paul emphasized that every trial we face is a go-signal to call upon the Lord. He said so after Jacob was tired about everything. This led to his two points.

First was what overwhelms you will shake you.

Let me ask you first before I elaborate on his first point. What overwhelms you? Think about it.

There are many things that overwhelm us — our personal problems, problems concerning our family, careers, businesses, relationships, or even our problems with our faith, perhaps. Whatever it may be, this gets into our cores. It later on begins to shake us. The worst scenario would be it becomes our identity.

The promise is, there is one above that loves us unconditionally – our Heavenly Father.

You are not defined by the ministry you have. You are not defined by your failures and mistakes. Instead, you are defined by the love of the Father.

 Second point was what shakes you will release you.

In this point, came the story of King Uzziah in 2 Chronicles 26. Uzziah means the strength of God. He led at a young age of 16, not the youngest king to serve; perhaps, one of the youngest rulers that would ever be. Who serves at that age, anyway? None.

He was a great king. He was upright in the sight of the Lord. Everything changed. His pride led to his own downfall.

Our target is God’s presence and prosperity is God’s target for us, His people.

He sought more power and eventually thought of not needing God anymore. We can relate to that as we continuously ask for His blessings. It is good to His blessings but we should also ask His presence in our lives.

By asking God’s presence, there come His revelations.

To have God’s revelations is to have wisdom. That explains our need to read His word – the Bible. Have you ever had a moment when God revealed something to you? If yes, great! If the response is no, I pray that you would in the future.

Ps. Paul ended it by encouraging us to let Uzziah die. Let our pride die.

Following it was Ps. Hiram’s message about miracle. In all honesty, I was not wholehearted in topics like this. However, I still listened to his preaching.

He started it by reading the story of the hemorrhaging woman in Mark 5:25. I have heard this familiar story many times; but every time I hear this, my heart breaks.

25 And a woman was there who had been subject to bleeding for twelve years. 26 She had suffered a great deal under the care of many doctors and had spent all she had, yet instead of getting better she grew worse. 27 When she heard about Jesus, she came up behind him in the crowd and touched his cloak, 28 because she thought, “If I just touch his clothes, I will be healed.” 29 Immediately her bleeding stopped and she felt in her body that she was freed from her suffering.

30 At once Jesus realized that power had gone out from him. He turned around in the crowd and asked, “Who touched my clothes?”

31 “You see the people crowding against you,” his disciples answered, “and yet you can ask, ‘Who touched me?’ ”

32 But Jesus kept looking around to see who had done it. 33 Then the woman, knowing what had happened to her, came and fell at his feet and, trembling with fear, told him the whole truth. 34 He said to her, “Daughter, your faith has healed you. Go in peace and be freed from your suffering.”

35 While Jesus was still speaking, some people came from the house of Jairus, the synagogue leader. “Your daughter is dead,” they said. “Why bother the teacher anymore?”

The story of the bleeding woman has impacted many lives. In fact, this was the word I shared to the youth and young professional in a local church. From this story, Ps. Hiram talked about three points on how to receive your miracles.

First, we should listen to the right word. In verse 27, the hemorrhaging woman heard about Jesus coming to the town. Just like us, not all things we hear should be listened to. Start listening to the right words!

Second, we should get close to Jesus. In the same verse, we could see that the bleeding woman pressed herself against the crowd to Jesus. She tried to get close to the healer. When she had the chance, she touched the cloak of Jesus.

Lastly, we should entertain miracle thoughts. In the succeeding verse, the woman thought to herself if she could be able to touch him, she would be healed. We all know what happened next. After she touched it, Jesus felt the power released and asked the crowd who’d touched him.

Trembling on what she heard, the woman told what and why she did so. Only to hear him say, “Daughter, your faith has healed you. Go in peace and be freed from your suffering.

Then, Ps. Hiram concluded it by telling the congregation to intentionally find a prayer partner (someone you don’t know personally) right that very moment and pray for your partner’s healing.

I found someone in front of our seats and his name is Raymond. Raymond has a problem with his skin (mostly upper body and his armpit). I started to pray for him and commanded the sickness to subside and be completely healed.

Then, Raymond started asking me about the sickness I wanted to be gone. Do you still remember what I mentioned in my previous post? There was pain between my thumb and point finger. I told him that, and my hoarse voice due to sore throat, which was itching and aching. He started to release his prayers and right then, my throat was comforted and I couldn’t feel the need to forcefully cough to relieve it. Also, the pain between my fingers was relieved. After he prayed, I pinched and pressed using my right hand to know if there was still pain. To tell you honestly, it was all gone. I was amazed at that moment.

Before the next speaker was called on stage, the ushers told that those who occupy Gen Ad seats could now transfer to Upper Box seats. After looking and assessing the situation, we decided to stay in our seats. Fortunately, we were the only two people left there and were able to find more comfortable seats.

Ps. Jerome Ocampo focused his message on the youth, and asked the congregation aged from 35 and below to stand. Of course, I did. He encouraged us with the words that we, millenials, are the most powerful generation that this world has ever had. He also asked the older generation to stand, extend their hands and pray for us. At that moment, God empowered our generation.

He began the message with lots of statistics concerning this generation. He also said that we belong to the most prophesied generation, sadly, the most under challenged generation. However, a number of statistics presented have been telling us that we are also the most attacked generation.

Ps. Jerome explained many reasons why we are attacked. He emphasized that there are three identified great needs of this generation.

This generation needs to have destiny. As we all know, this is the generation that pursues what they want (Esther 4:14). They want to get what they dream about. If they aren’t given destiny, their energy will be wasted.

This generation needs to have militancy. In Songs of Solomon 6:10,

10 “Who is this, arising like the dawn,
    as fair as the moon,
as bright as the sun,
    as majestic as an army with billowing banners?”

Most importantly, this generation needs to have family. Our young people need to belong, to be appreciated and to be loved. They should be part of Christ’s family (Colossians 3:15).

We are dismissed for a dinner break. After that, Rick Pino led us in worship. As expected, it was Spirit-filled. It revealed many things – new beginnings, gifts, empowerment, and identity that is anchored in the Father. An hour of worship.

To end the conference, Heidi Baker was the last to preach. Touched by the worship celebration, she called Rick on stage again to lead the congregation in worship. Back in South Africa, she is used to worshipping God for hours and even for days. So we continued.

And there I saw visions. I posted it in FB.


I see walls being struck down right now
chains being loose
seas parting
kingdoms falling
castles crashing
raging storms calming
cold hearts turning into flesh
slaves fleeing
prophecies fulfilling

How do you respond to these? Thank you to the Great I Am 🙏🏻

This continued for almost an hour. Heidi shared many of her stories about miracles and healing.

Going home after the conference, many lessons came and have been pondered on. I learned to believe completely. I learned to get close to the One Who heals and does miracles. I cannot just limit on my mind what our God can do in our lives. I cannot wait to attend conferences this 2017.

In Christ,


Open Minded ka ba?

Three days ago, I attended a two-day conference that was held in Cuneta Astrodome, Manila City. The conference was entitled Presence Driven. The guest speakers were Ps. Hiram Pangilinan, Ps. Jerome Ocampo, Ps. Paul Yadao and Heidi Baker. Various topics about healing, miracles, importance of the next generation (millenials), and God’s love to us were discussed.

I was just invited by a friend, Ate Bing, (Thanks for considering me, tebs) to join this conference, as she was able to win two Gen Ad tickets in a contest online. When she offered me this, I got excited and somehow tried to browse about this event. I also knew in my heart that there would be a great thing happening, so I chose to join.

Aside from that, I also thought the last time I attended a big gathering of brothers and sisters in Christ. I had nostalgia remembering the days of Jesus Revolution, Youth Factor and etc. Nakakamiss!

Now that I have shared too much, I also want to share more about the conference because I was so blessed with the new revelations God gave, the new insights I learned and the warmth of His fatherly love for us I felt. That’s worth a hundred words to share!


At around 9:30am, Ichang and I left Cavite via UV Express Service to Manila. I was not feeling fine because of sore throat and feeling the pain between my thumb and point fingers.

We arrived at the venue when Ps. Jerome Ocampo was about to conclude his message about passing and practicing the language and speech of the Holy Spirit to the next generations. I learned how important it is to minister to the younger generations because they are the future of the church and our nation.

Following the message by Ps. Jerome was Ps. Paul Yadao’s message (read Psalm 24) about finding your identity in God, our Heavenly Father. This time, I was able to listen thoroughly from the beginning to end of the preaching.

Ps. Paul also emphasized about inheriting the nations, as God’s ultimate goal is to make us sons and daughters. “You have an eternal calling. You have the mark, it cannot be erased.” said Ps. Paul.

Christians should go and reach out to all nations to proclaim the message of the Gospel – that Jesus Christ came down from heaven (exchanging his glory for us) as a man that died for our sins and rose again in the third day. I realized that if every Christian shares the Gospel and what Jesus did for us to his/her family and friends, we would live in a more loving environment.

He also marked that the process reveals your value and worth so we must enjoy the process. In this context, he was referring to our sanctification.

He also noted that pursuing the Lord’s kingdom, we ought to start right. By starting right, he meant every Christian has to know their birthright – coheirs with Jesus Christ. He concluded the message with Psalm 2:6, 7. Impressing that our good Father loves us and that He is always pleased with us.

After that, the worship team led us in worship and sang Good, good Father, which is by the way one of my favorite worship songs as of now.

Ps. Hiram followed that with his preaching about signs and wonders. As he was giving his introduction, I wondered about the instances I experienced God’s signs and wonders. I could only remember few moments. Maybe because I didn’t have much faith, I mused.

The Holy Spirit is imprisoned in the minds of the unbelieving believers. That statement somehow both rebuked and comforted me. Rebuked because I was entertaining disbelief after all. Comforted because I could finally admit that I failed to completely believe but I could start all over. Thank You, Lord, for the grace of breaking this wrong mindset I once had.

He later read scriptures from the verses of 30 and 31 of chapter four in the book of Acts, which says,

30 “Stretch out your hand to heal and perform signs and wonders through the name of your holy servant Jesus.”

31 After they prayed, the place where they were meeting was shaken. And they were all filled with the Holy Spirit and spoke the word of God boldly.

He pointed that there are 4 things we must do for us to move in signs and wonders of God today.

First, we must believe like a little child. In Luke 10:21, we will see Jesus told to the Father that He chooses to reveal things to little children. Remember that we are God’s children through Jesus Christ and we should always ask our Father for the things we want to know.

Second, we must believe that Jesus never changed. Hebrews 13:8 that Jesus is the same yesterday, today and forever. In Christ, we can rest assured there is FOREVER – his love he has for us.

Lastly, we should claim the anointing behind the testimonies. It is interesting to know in every testimony of showing God’s signs and wonders, we are encouraged to believe and claim it. I think that’s how our faith works.

We were dismissed to take a 30-minute lunch break.

Right after the lunch break, Rick Pino led us in worship. It lasted for an hour. I was blessed with the songs we sang. Then, he gave a short exhortation.

One thing that impressed me the most was when Rick pointed out, “God’s presence is the priority. It must be first.” I knew that God was speaking directly to me then. I cannot resist that I somehow fell short in this area, seeking God’s presence.

In worship, we gaze upon the beauty of our Lord.

Next speaker was Heidi Baker. By the way, the event was primarily promoted as Heidi Baker speaks in the conference. I hadn’t known her prior to the conference. So, I had none in particular to expect from the guest speaker. I guessed it better went that way because it helped me expect more and God didn’t disappoint me.

Heidi focused on the love God has for us and the same love we have to give fot the lost (or those who haven’t accepted Christ as Lord and savior). She is from the US but now living in Mozambique, South Africa. She founded the Iris Global, a missionary NGO in Mozambique. The people they help there call her “Mama Heidi”. As she spoke, I observed that she is filled with so much grace.

She taught about being intimate with God shows our real identity, sons and daughters. Thus, we are no longer fatherless. We are no longer orphans.

We cannot be intimate with the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit if we don’t know how God sees us. 

It only means that knowing how God sees us leads to true intimacy with God. His love is irresistible. It drives us to love others. It compels us to share the love we receive. Love is not something you wear on and off. Love is not complicated.


That concluded her message.


P.S. Sorry for making up irrelevant blog title, I know it has nothing to do with the content. I cannot just think of a better title for this. Hehe. Also, I will be posting my Day 2 experience. I think it is where breakthroughs manifested. I cannot wait to write about it.

In Christ,


UV Express Service

Listening to music is my favorite pastime. Whenever I do household chores or go to a place, I always make sure I have my ear pods on to complete the routine. It has become a habit when dad had given my first MP3 player in high school.

Just like the old days, while on the way to the office this morning, I was listening to a Hillsong Young & Free song entitled This is Living. At first, I was just staring through the window. Seconds later, I was already in tears. Many memories from this year had popped up and come by then I began to reminisce them.

In January, the year started right. It started in the way I wanted it to be. I still had my Researcher job together with my Program Coordinator job during Saturdays. I was also working on one of my favorite episodes in Powerhouse. Everything was perfectly in place, I supposed. Few days before January ended, news broke out.

My former college friend who happened to be my colleague (thanks to her recommendation I got the Researcher job!) decided to resign. She was one of my sources of encouragement whenever I felt down fulfilling the job. They were the two people whom I vented out my frustrations and disappointments in work. So, I really got affected with her decision.

On a Thursday meeting in Febraury with Powerhouse staff, our Program Manager told the decision that the show only had 4 more episodes left to air. I was so saddened at the thought of losing it because I really love the show and the people working there. I thought I was robbed of the things I dearly love. Not that I blamed God for it, but I wondered and asked questions why He had let that happen. However, days before we we nearing to end it, we received the news that we got extended with the new format and title — Dream Home. I was somehow relieved. I thought to myself, I was given another shot.

In March, I just continued working. Challenges accepted. I decided to do better because our show was on the verge between falling down and doing better. I tried to work diligently.

The big final twist of this roller coaster ride has been resolved — the show will be off air in the month of May.

Thinking of the unfortunate happenings in my workplace, I suddenly remembered a while ago that there were events in the Summer season that made my heart happy.

I enjoyed Summer vacation with my church mates and my sister. We went to different places in the provinces of Cebu and Bohol. It was my first to experience to jump cliffs in Kawasan Falls. I got thrilled every time I jumped high canyons. I wouldn’t trade that feeling!

I would no longer refer Chocolate Hills in the textbooks because I have seen it in person. Such an eyegasmic experience! Also, the tarsiers are the cutest primates I have probably seen in my entire life.

In June, I have also been able to go to the country I have always looked forward to go to — South Korea. The entire trip was just a leap of faith for me. From visa application to air fare ticket, from accommodation to itinerary – Everything was asked by faith. Also, this trip almost caused me a friendship-over with a college friend which I already asked forgiveness with.

I have already been to 5 Asian countries and South Korea, so far, is my favorite. I was so ecstatic to see what this country has to offer – its culture and traditions, food (of course, it’s in the list), people (KDrama avid fan here), tourist attractions and etc. Interestingly, I ended the trip by spending one whole day in Everland — it is the famous amusement park in Korea. It is two hours away from Seoul. I couldn’t care less even I traveled that much. South Korea is a dream destination for me.

Since May, I haven’t been hired to a job that I want aside from my Saturday stint. Then, one day, we were told in a meeting that GMA News Update will no longer air starting January 2017. Though, I saw it coming but still, I got hurt that the show I first worked for would come to an end.

One thing I also thank God for this year is the opportunity to share my testimony to a group of young people of a local church in Cavite. His story in my story. His strength in my weakness. His glory in my life. I couldn’t be more grateful for that.

All these flashed in my mind when I was on my way to the office. I also posted it on my Facebook just because I was so overwhelmed.

UV Express Service is probably the best place to reflect your life for the whole year. I am actually in tears typing this right now. Remembering the year 2016, my heart has started to overflow. Funny, right? Do you know what’s funnier? I am listening to “This Is Living” of Hillsong Y&F. Thank You, my God and Jesus, for touching my heart now and for the year 2016 it has been. Gusto ko pa po ganitong maraming UV Espress moments. 🤓

With that, I want to greet everyone a happy new year.

In Christ,